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The Fear To Love October 22, 2008

Filed under: Romance — Ryann Hayman @ 3:13 pm

There was a time in my life, when I allowed fear to consume me. But it wasn’t a fear of the societal ills that cause uneasiness to creep into the lives of many. Instead, my fears could all be traced back to an anxiety which primarily centered on all things love and relationship based. I had a laundry list of them…

I was afraid to love anyone, because I didn’t think I could do it right.
I was afraid to be loved, because I figured they would eventually leave me.
I was afraid to open up and express myself, because I was unsure if my feelings would be reciprocated.
I was afraid to receive compliments, because I undervalued my own worth.
I was afraid to date, because I expected myself to be clumsy and shy.
I was afraid to be faithful, because I assumed she would cheat.

The list went on and on…

Over time, I worked my way through those insecurities, and eventually developed into the man you see today. Looking back on it all, I learned that fear was indeed a mind conqueror, and if left unchecked could severely cripple any legitimate chance at experiencing the fullness of love. This brings me to my Fly Question of the Day.

The Fly Question of the Day

Have you ever been fearful of love? If so, what aspects scared you the most?


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